Decisions vs Doubts

People doubt about the choices they made, people doubt about their future, people doubt about their dreams.

Most of the time, people are so full of confusion. And people tend to doubt because they felt that the chosen one is not the best for them. Greed, lust, and obsession are the answers to their skepticism.

People ought to be insecure n unassure by their own decision. Why of course, everyone would wanted the best for themselves, but have they ever think of those who aren't even given a choice or a chance to choose?

Sometimes, i just felt that this world is full of obstacles n huddles of life. Things weren't always going to be good. Things weren't always going to be perfect.

But somehow, we have no choice but to obey to the rules of this game of life. Pass through it, and you're okay! But if you fail, sorry then! There wouldn't be a second chance.

Sometimes i bewilder too.
i think of why am i born to this world?
i think of why am i a girl and not a boy?
i think of why am i here in UTP?
i think of why am i torturing myself?
i think of am i at the right place? right here? right now?

i think of quitting, i think of suicide, i think of leaving...
but anyhow, i failed to do so, cause i doubted too much.
i hesitated.
i ceased and
i receded
from the decision.