Love is in the Air

Love is when you look in to someone's eyes and you see his heart.
Love is when out of thousands of people, you only see him coming through.
Love is when he's around, you feel your world spinning round like crazy.
Love is when you embrace all his weaknesses and love him with all your heart.
Love is when despite differences, it doesn't matters to you at all.
Love is when you don't care about recognition, but rather any objections will only make your love stronger.

Nah, don't get me wrong, I'm not the one who's in love, its just something I see from a friend. And that's the true meaning of love.

being an Emo

Just when the sky is blue and the fields are green, everything in sight are grayish in colour, and the sickening darkness comes swirling in, conquering my mind and my soul. I can't think, I can't smile, I can't focus, and I walked like a zombie. I ate chocolate, I drank something sweet, I ate cookies, just to you know, get back in the mood, but still to no avail. I went to the library, and sat down among the books, took a deep deep breathe, and closed up my eyes. I eventually felt better. I thought I was getting it over, but just the second I leave, it's all coming back to me. I know it was just a small matter, but it really hurt me deep, deep enough to make me soulless. I don't know how long its going to take to feel okay again, but I'm trying hard to get my mind off it.

If it's often too difficult to be somebody that you're not, so why be?

Night sky

I know its late, but I couldn't fall asleep. Okay, maybe I can, but i just don't want to. Simply just because I particularly like the times like this, and I certainly don't wanna miss even a second of the quiet night. It's not like I could do this everyday, so since its weekend, I'm so gonna stay up late, enjoying the minutes to dawn, with a cup of instant cappuccino, and a romance novel I got from the IRC. Sitting in front of the window, having the cold night air taunting me, just like they always do, seeping up my cup of hot cappuccino, looking high up into the sky, and somehow I find the feeling wonderful. The late night sky, it looks just so beautiful. With the moon and a few shinning stars outcasting the groovy thick clouds, it was an indeed very simple, and yet perfectly illustrated piece of art. Being alone when the world's sleeping, often makes me feel forsaken, but not in the sense that I am lonely, surprisingly I somehow awkwardly enjoy being left alone. Maybe I just needed some time on my own to do some deep thinking like this, figuring out the realms beyond simplicity, and searching for the inspiration that feeds the mind of thoughts.

To Dream a Dream

Everyone has a dream, to be rich, to be famous, and perhaps to be on the top of the world. But for me, I just wanted something simple. No super big mansion, no super luxury car, just a DSLR, and a backpack, and oh, nearly left out the most important stuff in anyone life, cash! *Kaching kaching! I wish to travel all over the world, to see and to feel. I'm so gonna do it, someday. But for now, its rather an imagination than a wish list. First I don't have the money, and second I don't have the guts. I mean its the world I'm talking about, and that's something big and uhm, can't really find the suitable word, dangerous I guess.
Imagine that, holding your DSLR, with your medium size Samsonite backpack, travel from Rome to Venice, from Paris to London, from Frankfurt to Berlin, from Africa to Brazil, from New York to LA, it feels so unrestricted, so much adventures, so much freedom. Its simply a life that a person couldn't have want more.
Just before it all could happen, I have to pass my every test, working offshore *finger cross, getting promotion, getting all the raise and stuff, until I'm totally done with that, and then, there begins the real chapter of my life, the real story of me.

Stary stary night

The late night air is so cool yet so refreshing.
And a really deep breathe makes the night even more wonderful.
I just enjoy the blow of the midnight breeze, it makes me think beyond logic.
Everything is so quiet at the moment, no noise, no people, just me, and the stars.
Its a rare occasion to have yourself alone, finding peace in a place you never liked.
And this very rare occasion simply just happen to me, tonight.

From Utp with love

01:49, and the lights in most of the rooms are still on. Its a culture to stay up late I guess. Drank a big cup of Nescafe ice earlier, and now its taking its effect, I cant go to bed. Coughing like hell for nearly a week already, and it just not getting any better.
Just some quick recap of my weeks, I've joined so many clubs, mostly blindly, but some of them eventually turn out to be fun! Muaythai was really awesome, just can't wait til the next class. And I joined Karate back, the timing was so great that I got an AHOD post just after one training, and also much of the muscle pain. Meche club, ELC, SAE, and AIESEC, the another really awesome organization run by a bunch of really awesome people. Just loving it.
And while writing this post, I'm suddenly craving so badly for kentucky cheezy wedges! Argh, its been so long since I ate one. H~U~N~G~R~Y~
Oh, nearly forgot to complain about my lecturer, the DE lecturer. She really sucks! I don't get a word she is teaching, and yet she was showing herself off in the first class about how good she really is. Yeah right, I can teach by just showing slides too! And also the AW lecturer, she can talk and talk and talk non-stop from the minute she enter the class. And everything she talks about are pointless. One more thing, I just don't know why is she keep on shifting our schedule, it do us no good, in fact just making things complicated. Ow, having these two lecturers, I think I'm going to screw up my 1st pointer, not mentioning the case that I'm not eligible for dean's list. This is really a fucked up school with its fucked up system.
Its just week 3 and I'm experiencing so many ups and downs already. Just don't know what is going to happen next. Life is a mystery after all. Wink!

Just life

While someone is holding their new born with joy and gratitude, someone is mourning their beloved, whom now only leaves behind memories and moments of laughter they once cherish together.
While someone is standing on the stage celebrating their victory with pride and honour, someone is defeated, and forever became the forgotten.
While someone is united with that somebody that they truly love, someone is left behind in sorrow and pain anguishing never that acute before.
That's just the way things are planned in a daily routine we called life, for you, for me, and any living species on earth, until the earth stop spinning, the sun stop shinninh.

Feeling Incredibly Awesome

Guess what? I made it! Yes, I really made it through! Whoa, I'm feeling so very...... I can't even describe my very own feelings! Oh, I can feel the magic in the air, I can feel the world spinning round, I can feel my feet dancing together with the wonderful late night air, oh, I'm feeling fantastic!

I didn't get the best, but I'm happy enough to tell myself that I'm certainly not a noob among the stars. Although I made it this time, I'm most definitely just counting on luck, and I really learnt my lesson. I swear, I'll never play the fool around anymore when undergrads start. I still can't believe myself studying for the very last minute for the finals. I don't even realize that the exam was just next week until a friend mentioned about it. Oh gosh, I have no idea at all what on earth was I thinking back then.

Maybe I was sort of giving up that time, thinking that I was left out way too far behind. I don't know, I just won't let that ever happen again. I'm not going to be that girl in such bewilderment and denial anymore. And I've found my inspiration and passion during the sem break. I'm so gonna make this revolution happen. I'll be a whole new person when sem starts!

Sunny morning

It is a lovely weather we are having. The Sun is shinning so brightly, the birds are singing so happily, haaah, what a wonderful day we have here. What shall we do in a such pleasant sunny Tuesday morning like this?
Make breakfast for yourself and your not-so-clever dogs? Walk those airheads down the park? Research on the models of your ideal phone? Get yourself a nice new cellphone? Text your friend and go hang out together? Hmm, it is a lovely weather we are having and I surely don't wanna miss it.

YET ANOTHER RANDOM POST

Wow! The night is freaking hot! And when the weather is hot like this, I could hardly get myself together. My mind keep on flying away, my body's sweating like I'm in hell, my feet and palms turn cold and wet because of the sweat, my stomach aching because of the extensive amount of coffee, my brain's getting so dry and tired, my chemistry book's so heavy that it took me hours to flip on to the another page, my eyes getting narrower and narrower...and yes, it all happens when I'm having my finals.
Fuh! Its going to be a long long night tonight. But keeping my fingers cross that I can make it through tonight, and the following nights, until my finals end!
Woohoo! Its time to get really serious! Lets get it started peeps!

WHEN IT HAPPENS

When the night falls in, and when the cool and chilly air lashes across my face, I took a deep breathe and closed my eyes, I wanted the night to last perhaps a little bit longer.
When the wind blows again, and when the stars is shinning so gracefully up above, as if they were smiling to me, I smiled back knowing that one of them is the dog I loved.
When the song "tonight I celebrate my love with you" is played, and when the memories slip past, I knew that I had never get over you.
When the telephone rings, and when I know its not mine, I suddenly realized how much I missed you.

HACHI

Watching Hachi, reminds me of my first dog ever. Her name was Cherry, an indeed, just like her name, she was very cherishing :) I can't help but smile every time i think of her, and our days together, and how noob and clumsy she used to be. I remember the day Dad brought her home, as a surprise (great one Dad), she was in a bag, looking terrified, but when I hold her in my arms, she slowly calm down, and begin to snuggle. :) Ahh Cherry, look how you stole my heart away.  

ANOTHER RANDOM THOUGHT

Woots~Its 3.36 in the morning, and yet, I haven sleep, again!
I'll think of lots and lots of stuff at times like this. Maybe I just enjoy the serenity of the night. Or maybe its just the matter of the unwind biological clock.
Just when you're alone in a quiet room, listening to the noise of the turning ceiling fan, you'll have more to think about.
And when you're awake in a quiet night, you'll see someone breaking up, you'll see someone snoring, you'll see someone true colours, you'll see someone ugliest manner, you'll see someone saying someone behind their back, you'll see someone posting craps on facebook to hurt someone, you'll see things that do not happen when everyone's awake.
A calm and breezy night like this gave me a better view of something you call reality. Its somewhat very simple and yet complicated that most of us choose to avoid, or perhaps too busy to care. Well, for me its like a drama acted by the people I know, in a place I live.
When you see it all, you'll become a better person, or worse.

19岁生日

时钟快要十二点了

心想今年的生日

会只是一个人静静的过

自己唱生日歌给自己听

就在我打开DEV-c++ new source file

正要打#之际

一把很熟悉的声音

渐渐靠近我房间

Camille! Camille！

噢！是vivian

手里还拿着一罐粉，

应该是olivia的爽身粉，

顺手把我房间的灯关上

这时候eng跟Olivia也来了，

eng拿着一个心形蜡烛，

代替蛋糕给我吹。

她们还亲手画了张生日卡，

一张有钱也买不到的生日卡。

真的有点感动

虽然我的生日没有搞什么生日会

可是我已经很满足了

有一班好朋友陪在身边

庆祝我生日的第一分钟

已经够了

也很感激替我送上祝福语的朋友们

很开心，亦很欣慰

得知原来你们心里有我

朋友

谢谢你！

是真的

朋友不用多

只要遇到生命中的好朋友

就已经很足够了