Sighing helplessly..

Oh well, I still have 53 hours, 49 minutes and 50 seconds to be home. Every minute counts now. How much I wish time wouldn't pass by so soon.

But ya know, time never waits. **sigh**

After some relaxing moment at my lovely hometown with my lovely family and my lovely friends, its time to face the reality again, --the boring UTP and the deadly RESULTS..**tears drop falling down**I really don't want to go back there.

Its a new semester and a new start though, still, I'm fed up of that place. **sigh again**

The food, the lectures, the assignments, the Independence, the chores, the loneliness (i'm alone taking sport science..stupid student portal punya pasal lah!), everything, they sucks! ***sighing for the third time, and the fourth time, plus the fifth time, forget about that, its not gonna end anyway***

But its quite weird for me to admit that, I'm sort of getting used to it, and it had in fact became a routine for me. But still, I'm hating it!

The point is: I AM FED UP OF UTP AND THE LIFE THERE ! ! !

ObsTAcles in My wAy..

first obstacle:

Done badly in my exam..after some calculation, i can still get like 3.107, which is way low under JPA requirement..and as a result, I'll be the stupidiest scholar among the chinese..what a shame..a real shame!

second obstacle:

I can't log in the stupid student portal! For God sake! What a stupid idiot and super moron system. I cant log in means that I can't register my courses for the next sem! Holy shit! And the people in charge didn't even reply my e-mail. MATI la...

third obstacle:

Quarrel with my parents..haiz..now face black black with me..

Why is life so harsh on me?

Gathering

Forgive and Forget

I think I should forgive, and forget.
Maybe I'm too sensitive, maybe you didn't mean it. Deep inside, I really hope that everything is my mistake. Seriously I really do. Please, tell me that you are not the person that I hated so much. I don't want to live a life full of hatred, it suffocates me! I don't want you to be my enemy. I still wanna "heal" our friendship. But can you make it happen for us?

Call it a Day..

Its Saturday! And I wasn't doing anything beneficial. Just sitting here with Labbie (my laptop), playing games, watching movies, and that I call it a day. What a waste of time. I'm actually aware, but I'm just feeling too lazy to do anything, especially studying! I don't know why was I so "unproductive" today, and unhappy, too. Will it be the tension of pre-calculus test? Will it be the pressure of the awaiting assignments? Haiz, really miss secondary school days. Don't have those FU*K**G stressful situation that I'm facing here everyday, don't have those SH*t assignment that counts for marks, don't have those stupid lab reports that affect my final result, don't have any LAME quiz, don't have those piqued and confusing lectures..and this..and that..and..and..

Here I go again, can't stop complaining once I began on this topic. Anyway, complaining doesn't solve the matter either. Just to shout it out, for some tension relieve! At least! Haha!
Well, I begin to get use to the life here already. But still not feeling comfortable with it. This place is so damn freakin DUMB! Honestly, I HATE it here. But what to do? I'm fated to be here! No choice but to accept it. In fact I should be "thankful" (This is a school where hundreds are fighting for a place here). But never mind. We'll see! Its too early to jump to a conclusion. As the old classical adage goes, "don't judge a book by its cover". It may be better than I expected it to be, or it may be even worse than I could ever think of! Who knows? Just let the time tell.

爬头

今天，
我爬头爬到头皮都快落出来了。
太难了，
实在太难了。
明天，
就是物理考试咯！
好怕！
好担心！
如果FAIL怎么办？
咳，
也许是命中注定吧！
如果我有国靖的头脑，
崇昆的聪明，
那就完美无瑕，
天下无敌了咯！

其实，
为什么人一遇到难题，
就会猛地爬头呢？
Reflects action？
难道，
这样可以增强思考能力，
爬了爬就会找出solution？
hmm...
到底是什么原因呢?
奇怪！