Gathering

Forgive and Forget

I think I should forgive, and forget.
Maybe I'm too sensitive, maybe you didn't mean it. Deep inside, I really hope that everything is my mistake. Seriously I really do. Please, tell me that you are not the person that I hated so much. I don't want to live a life full of hatred, it suffocates me! I don't want you to be my enemy. I still wanna "heal" our friendship. But can you make it happen for us?

Call it a Day..

Its Saturday! And I wasn't doing anything beneficial. Just sitting here with Labbie (my laptop), playing games, watching movies, and that I call it a day. What a waste of time. I'm actually aware, but I'm just feeling too lazy to do anything, especially studying! I don't know why was I so "unproductive" today, and unhappy, too. Will it be the tension of pre-calculus test? Will it be the pressure of the awaiting assignments? Haiz, really miss secondary school days. Don't have those FU*K**G stressful situation that I'm facing here everyday, don't have those SH*t assignment that counts for marks, don't have those stupid lab reports that affect my final result, don't have any LAME quiz, don't have those piqued and confusing lectures..and this..and that..and..and..

Here I go again, can't stop complaining once I began on this topic. Anyway, complaining doesn't solve the matter either. Just to shout it out, for some tension relieve! At least! Haha!
Well, I begin to get use to the life here already. But still not feeling comfortable with it. This place is so damn freakin DUMB! Honestly, I HATE it here. But what to do? I'm fated to be here! No choice but to accept it. In fact I should be "thankful" (This is a school where hundreds are fighting for a place here). But never mind. We'll see! Its too early to jump to a conclusion. As the old classical adage goes, "don't judge a book by its cover". It may be better than I expected it to be, or it may be even worse than I could ever think of! Who knows? Just let the time tell.

爬头

今天，
我爬头爬到头皮都快落出来了。
太难了，
实在太难了。
明天，
就是物理考试咯！
好怕！
好担心！
如果FAIL怎么办？
咳，
也许是命中注定吧！
如果我有国靖的头脑，
崇昆的聪明，
那就完美无瑕，
天下无敌了咯！

其实，
为什么人一遇到难题，
就会猛地爬头呢？
Reflects action？
难道，
这样可以增强思考能力，
爬了爬就会找出solution？
hmm...
到底是什么原因呢?
奇怪！

H1N1?

My body temperature is rising. Is it really H1N1? Oh my God! Please bless me. I don't want to die yet! At least not this way!

睡不着...

现在已是凌晨两点四十一分。我还睡不着。眼睁睁望着那本4.5cm厚的Foundation Physics，我又开始觉得很压力了。因为我根本就不明白它到底在讲些什么。刚刚做了physics的练习，结果是全部都不会。看来我是真的不适合读physics。讨厌它的感觉又来了。就像中四刚刚学它时的厌倦感。那时候是因为幸亏有了补习老师的辅导，我的physics稍有进步。回想起来，Teacher Yanti 可说是我的大恩人。我真得很感激这位老师。是她令我明白什么是physics，是她令我爱上physics。我SPM physics 之所以拿到A1也是老师的功劳。现在上了大学，还会有第二位Teacher吗？还会有人让我重新明白它吗？还会有人让我重新爱上它吗？咳，难道我的physics注定FAIL？我真得喘不过气来！我的头好重哦！Fully loaded with all the pressure and stress I guess.

Hiak!把懒虫全给杀掉!杀！杀！杀！我要发奋图强！Lecturer不教我，大不了我就自己学。LIM CAMILLE是做得到的！